the truth beneath "AIMAN"...

hurm~
the story is like this...(i make it short liao coz lazy to write so long..zzz...)
on this one particular september,
a lady was in labour and she's waiting for her baby to come out...
her husband was so irresponsible,
he left her for work eventhough the she's in pain...
during that time,
they don't have money to go to the hospital...
their life was a complete wreck!!!!
while her husband is busy at work,
she walk to the clinic by herself with only RM5...
the nurse said that she's ready for her baby but she needs to go to the hospital...
then,
she go to the general hospital(HSA) and waiting in a LONG,long queue...
when she was emitted,
the doctor just ignore her because she under low class section and wasn't that important to the doctors...
she was in serious pain during that time and her husband wasn't there to support her eventhough he knew...
she kept waiting and waiting...
suddenly,
a head nurse came...
the nurse was her ANSARA's mate...
the nurse rushed to get the doctor and change her emitted her from low class to first class treatment free of charge...
the doctor came and quickly standby for her delivery...
but then,
it still not time...
after awhile,
she went back home...
on the way back,
her husband kept babbling about wasting his time just to pick her up at the hospital...
and then,
she told her husband that she's a little hungry...
she asked him to get a "Fish & Chips" at Marrybrown because there's an offer during that time...
when she took her first bite out of it,
immediately,
the pain suddenly came back and she was rushed to the hospital...
luckily,
she arrive there just in time and everyone was ready for including her friend...
without having to worry about a thing,
she delivered a healthy baby boy...
she was happy on that time but start to worry about the bills etc...
out of the blue moon,
her friend told her that she don't have to worry about a thing...
everything was settle and she just need to relax and enjoy her life with her new born baby...
to think that the journey that started from HELL to HEAVEN,
with GOD's blessing + a lil LUCK,
she decided to name her baby "AIMAN" which mean "the LUCKY one"...
and now i realized why is the name was given to me...
eventhough i'm not that LUCKY now,
but back at that time,
it was a total LUCK ^^
about the Fish & Chips part,
i so do called myself only 50% MALAY,25% CHINESE and 25% ENGLISH (just for hating my DAD for his shitfull attitudes)...
GOD,
thank you for all of these...
hope i'll be LUCKY to get through everything ;)

p.s - the truthfulness about this story is yet to be discuss...it will be confirm soon after various of thorough research ;)

crushed dreams!!!

we can dream and keep on dream...
in my case,i dream n dream hard until i almost got it...
but then,
this BASTARD came and turn it into a NIGHTMARE!!!

these are the dreams that was crushed instantlu ->

-kinder,wanna take mandarin class,but then he changed it to MORAL because i'll be a "MELAYU MURTAD" if i start learn mandarin...
-primary 1,got number 2 in the whole school ranking,he didn't bother to come and see me taking the award...
-primary school,got the title of best prefect,best class monitor,best librarian for the entire school but he just ignored...
-daily life,try to ask him to do something that i like,he turned me down and spents with cousins playing SOCCER...
-the 1st time i knew VOLLEYBALL from the thai movie "IRON LADIES",he forbid me from playing volleyball because of it
-primary 6 -> form 1,he told me to apply for EC,but then i told him i wanna go to SSI. i got a letter from SSI and i was accepted to the school.he let me read the letter,take it back after i finish reading and throw it away.
-form 2,my tonsils are badly swollen and my trachea was almost block by it.he put me into a specialist so that they can remove.after the operation's finishs,he accused me of spending the rm3000 that he wanna use to buy a laptop for my surgery...
-form 3 -> form 4,i wanna continue in science stream but urged me to go into "sek teknik" and take agro science. i won't go and he ain't talk to me...
-form 5,begging for tuition because i'm a darn NOOB.he won't a single cent and i have to work my ass out for the fees(RM250/month)...
-MMC,damn!!! that's the most wreckoning year with him..he forced my room-mate to spy on me everyday without me knowing it.at the end,my friend went crazy because he can't stand he kept calling him everyday!!!
-MMC ->varsity,got my upu result and was accepted into UTM for my degree.when i told both my parents,they said it is one of the worst course there is with NO FUTURE eventhough my mom is in UTM!!!
-varsity,hr forced me to change to CHEMICAL ENGINEERING because he wants CLASS when his friends ask him about me.i won't change and he's bloody furious about it X(
-varsity,play volleyball for UTM team.but then,he make it worst.to many to lists here(sorry about that...)
-and the list continues...

when you're born as a BASTARD,you'll stay as one for ETERNITY!!!!

why do u have to ruin everything???
whether i ask for something or just shut my pie hole,
u still do the thing that u always do which is become a "damn bloody BASTARD!!!!"

u always FUCK me up and ruin everything!!!
everyday u always make me starve to death!!!
u don't the things that i do and the things i don't...
u can't remember or don't know about me at all!!!
u don't give a SHIT about me!!!
u merely talk to me about anything since i was born..
eventhough we had tons of time together(just the 2 of us),u won't say a single SHIT and ignore me all the way!!!
when it comes to ur fav GWENDY DOLL,
u talk as if u'r out of breath!!!
u really enjoy look at me being miserable and all!!!
DaMN u!!!!

i'm da most unluckiest person ever that have to call u DAD!!!!!!

call from the heaven's above... o:)

it happened on the 19th of june...
me and the social service peeps went to GELANG PATAH to help some old folks with their wrecked house etc...
eventhough they aren't in a goof condition,
they still cooked dinner for us and it was delicious.. :)
couples of minutes before dinner time,
suddenly there was no light...
the whole house went dark...
we can't see a thing because it was so dark...
the old lady n her children went cranking in the kitchen to look for candles...
at the same time,
me and the others have to perform our prayers in the dark(eventhough i still don't trust HIM)...
then,
all of us have our "candle light dinner" with our pretending happy faces eventough we aren't happy for them T_T
my phone suddenly rang...
thought of going to skip it,
but then when i see the id,
HE called...i ran out of the house and start babbling like a totally different person...
miss him loadz because he's the one who raise me up throughout the whole year when i'm in malacca where i start knew life...
told him about my result...
told him about my problems...
suddenly i cant hear a thing...
the silence kept going about 10secs and then he starts...
he was furious at first... v.v
but then,
he calms down and said, "don't worry.just ignore then whether they score higher than u.the only thing that matters is u.just relax and try look back and trace where do u did wrong.soon everything will be fine.i'm sure u can score,".
everytime he calls,
the same quote came out from the phone's speaker...
we kept talking for quite sometime...
and then,
he made me realize about i'm letting HIM(God) down...
after that,
i felt a presence that i've used to feel before this...
and that's where i realise that HE never let me down...
and now,
i'm back again on track...
track where people go through to endup fly with the angels in HEAVEN ^^

thanks alot SIR for bringing me up...i felt so hard and now,i'm back again...i owe u my life...thanks again SIR :)

i cant stop that feeling... T_T

coursemates kept text and called me just to know my gpa...

i have the guts now to tell them(eventhough i wrote in my blog already...haiz...)

the bad thing about it that i really hate is this ->

people: "AIEMAN,how's your result?"

me: "so bad. i didn't even get Dean List"

people: "you're lying.tell me la how much you got?"

me: "i only get 3.31 only..."(in a sad way) T_T

people: "har!!!! how come can be like that???!!! i got 3.96 and the others all 1st class!!!"

me: "i know..."

people: "u study like hell still get bad result??!!! blah2..etc..."

see...it's not worth telling at all...my dignity turn into dusts with a blink of an eye...i can't show my face anymore...can't stand the pressure!!!

GOD!!!

why do u did this to me???!!!

i didnt do anything wrong...

i dont deserve any of these things...

what do U expect me to do??

just accept it and smile all the way???!!!!

DAMN!!!!

eventhough it cant be rectified,

it's consider cruel U know!!!! T_T

U really let me down... T_T

i dont know what to say to U anymore...

T_T........

現実は裏切るもので判断さえ!!!

hurmm...
it's kinda simple actually...
i'm come to my senses already...
who's god and who am i...
HE control everything and i'm just a humble servant trying to get trough life...
without effort,
HE won't give us any rewards...
my result is a wreck...
don't care about it anymore because it's destined to be like that and i have to accept it...
like it or not,
it happened already and no one can change it...
i don't care anymore about graduating 1st class etc...
i just wanna get through this and hope for the best...
not planning to become a STATISTICIAN actually because i'm suck in STATISTICS...
i realize that my passion is on air,
in a commercial flight going around the world...
the route to get there is so damn hard nowadays...
so,
have to be prepared and pray loads to HIM because only HE can help me...

i'm so mad actually at this particular person whom i called DAD...
because of his fucking attitude and his noobishness,
i realized,that's why i don't celebrate FATHER's DAY...
serve him right...
sometimes,
i really wish i have a great dad whom i can look up to...
i've suffered so many years because of him...
only GOD,lecs n my friends know about it...
PLEASE GOD...
PLEASE MAKE HIM REALIZE THAT HE'S SUCH A FUCKING MORON!!!
i can't stand it anymore...
AMIN...

GOD had shown me the light that i've asked for...
but i'm to afraid to go back to HIM because he'll sure be furious...
i'll come back one day...
soon...
and hope everything will come out fine... ^^

lost of FAITH and TRUST to GOD... T_T

results came out already...
fyi, mine's SUX!!!
my gpa is only 3.31...
thx loadz God for that...
i can't stop blamming Him...
i chew my ass off...
but then,
it's not worth a shit!!!! X(

i pray and pray but i can't feel his presence at all... T_T
what happened to me i don't know... T_T
i really miss Him and i want Him back in my life... T_T
God...
please show me the light so that i can go back to you...
i'm sorry for everything...
T_T

btw,
as promise,
i've breakup with my gf because i didn't get 1st class for this semester...
promise is a promise...
T_T

now i noe ur TRUE COLOURS...

thx 4 bein honest wit me...
i think m a jackass evn try 2 noe u snce we met las yer...
tot u'r my besfwen, bt u'r NOT...
tot u'r my fwen, bt u'r NOT...
so,
it mkes me a JACKASS!!!...
y m so fuckin stupid 2 even try???!!!
wtf!!!
m a tot JACKASS!!!
i rlly h8 u b4...
bt aftr u told me evrtyn,
it isnt ur fault bt its mine...
FUCK!!!

move on man!!!!
thats wat wll i do...
m fnshd n i dn hv antyn 2 do wit him nymore...
m DONE!!!! ;)

u 1na noe who???
dn wory...
u'll noe soon ^^

da TNET so...CIBAI!!!

hw kam sdnly bkam mre CIBAI-er den b4???!!!!
kns!!!
i 1na do my work n endup wit rubsh!!!
i evn cnt opn dis bldy mozzla!!!
dn u dre talk bot YM!!!!
FUCK tnet!!!!
so CIBAI!!!

FUCK U DAD!!!!

DAMN!!!
I RLLY PISSD!!!!
HE'S N HIS FUCKIN ATTDE!!!!
G2H MAN!!!!!! x(

u'r actually da TRUE BESFWEN...

m wreckd trght tym n no1's der 4 me... T_T
cried n evrtyn bt stll,
no1's thre... T_T

den,
cme dis 1 guy into my lyf dat i ddnt expctd 2 b dis close...
he hlpd me...
he brgt me up...
he's durin my ups n downs...
he evn go 2 my mtches (he nvr miss 1)...
he accpts me s i m...
he's a guy dat evry1's lookin 4...

he's name is ASYRAF :)
n he's my TRUE BESFWEN ^^
he hlpd me in evrywy...
anytym, anywhre... :)
he was thre 4 me espcly las n8...
he stys 4 me n mke sre evrtyn is ok den he wnt bak...
it shows he cares 4 his besfwen... :)
n i rlly owe him 4 dat...
untl 2dy,
i stll rmmbr his words:
"u'r not my snior,bt u'r my besfwen"...
nt a sngle prsn dat i clld besfwen eva told me sch words...
bt dis guy,
he rlly mean it...

n 4 dat ASYRAF,
m rlly thnkfl dat i knw u ;)
u'r da TRUE BESFWEN ;)
i aprcte evrtyn dat u did n i dno hw 2 rpay ur gud deeds ;(
i rlly hpe dat we sty s BESTESTFWEN 4eva ^^
thx loadz budy... ^^

xm's fnsh n hols stats... :|

xm's fnsh oldi n da hols stats...
m so darn bored coz gt notyn 2 do...
prpred oldi 4 my nex sem...
nd 2 go do my ftnss coz m FAT!!!! X(
rlly h8 it...
plz dn ask me bot my xm coz i rlly h8 it X(

b4 da hols,
m hvin qte a tough tym bot evrtyn...
lukly,
i met des 3 guyz dat help me get trough dis...
thy r:
1 - ASYRAF (forecast)
2 - AMIRUL (forecast)
3 - BAZLI (2 SAW)

i rlly owe dem big tym coz witout dem,
i dno wat wll hpn 2 me...
i lookd 4 evry1 trght dis sem bt nt all r thre 4 me...
dis guyz shown me who my fwenz, besfwenz n who's not...
thx agn guyz...
i rlly aprcte it...
i'll chersh u 4vea ;)

notyn 2 say no mre coz m so darn bored...
njoy ur hols...
paie...

they're da 1 who made me h8 dem!!!

i rlly tried my bes 2 accpt dem bak bt thy'r da 1 who mde me H8 dem MORE!!! X(
i did evrtyn dat dey 1 bt stll it bckfrd n i dno y...
da 1 who i rfrd 2 is my P_ _ _ _ _ S (clue : da 1 da made u)...
i cnt stand anymre...
aclty,
m nt in da mood 2 wrte bot dem r8 nw...
i'll cntnue l8r... X(

evrtyn stll hvnt fall 2 places... T_T

i dno y...
i did evrtyn i cld bt stll,
it bkam worse... T_T
i stdy hard bt i stll cnt scre..
i dno y is ez 4 me durin sem 1 bt it isnt da sme 4 dis sem...
i tried n i tried bt stll i failed ;(
i prmsed mr ANUAR dat i gna scre dis sem oso bt m hvin a hard 2 undrstnd a sngle subtopic espcly LINER ALGEBRA...
GOD...
plz help me...
i oly 1na scre 1st clss 4 dis sem...
i dn expct 2 get 4.00 based on my prfmnce...
m begging U...
3.67gpa is cnsdr gud enuf 4 me... T_T
bot da MASUM thingy,
its ok if i ddnt get da chnce 2 go...
m grtefl enuf bcoz u gv me da chnce 2 join U-team n i stll cn cntnue plyin VB n imprve myslf ;)
+,thx agn 4 gvin me great fwenz espcly ladz n lassiez frm UTM VB:
-ABG SYUQ
-ZULFI
-SHERFEN
-MEI YAN
-SHI LING
-SIN YIN
-ABG SOFIE
-ABG ZUL
-BOON KIAT
-P'E
-ABG NGAI
-ABG ZUL
-ABG KHOON
-ABG ROY...

u guyz had tght me alot bot fwensip ;)

4 MR FRANCO,
thx alot 4 bein da greatest DAD in da WORLD ;)
tc me lyk m ur own...
u ddnt left me hgh n dry...
scfrce evrtyn jz 2 c us epi...
i rlly owe u alot...
tq SIR ;)

4 da othrs,
stdy hard durin stdy wk...
or else,
u'll endup lyk me.. :(
gd lux 4 ur fnl n cya durin da hldys ;)

xm is near... :|

dang...
fnl xm is near n i hvnt prpre a thin...
hw cn i scre 4 dis sem...
argh!!!! T_T
h8 it alot...
evrtyn i 1 hd gne in2 thin air...
1 sec i omos gt it,
sdnly,
it dsspr witout a trce... T_T
getin rdy 4 MASUM is hard...
lukly mos of my fwenz wll cme along...
huhu...
incldin IEZAT...
untl 2dy,
he stll wont talk 2 me...
grow up budy...
u bein CHILDISH evntgh u hv a ADULT body...
duh... X(

UTM VB,
jiayou2 ;)
we cn do it...
"1 TEAM,1 DREAM!"

n God,
plz help me...
i oly nd 1st clss 4 dis sem n i'll prmse i'll let go of evrytyn nx sem... ;(

2 Mr. IBRAHIM,
tq 4 bein sch a grt fathr...
u'v guide n hlp me alot trght dis sem...
dno wt 2 do witout u...
i owe u 1 :)

n 4 u guyz,
sowie 4 nt updtin dis blog s i usually do
coz u noe,
@ dis tym,
peeps bz wit asgmt,tst n xm...

toodles 4 nw ^^
xoxo...

gratz UTM VC!!!! ^^

GRATZ UTMVC for winnin VB UTM OPEN!!!! ^^
cnt blieve dat both teams(M n F) won!!!!
huhu...^^

epi 19th bday CYAK!!!! ^^

lolx...
2dy is CYAK's bday!!!
tot he wnt 2 slp tgh coz he alwyz slp aftr 10...
wnt i clld him jz nw @ 12am(sharp!!!),
he answrd n laughd...
lolx...
a lil wish frm me whch is,
"epi 19th bday CYAK!!!"...
1 thx frm him n a lil laugh frm us both...
lolx ^^
cnt wait 2 c u budy...
njoy ur lyf n all da bes 4 ur upcomins ;)
mish u loadz bro ;(
huhu...

sudnly i mish him... @.@''

y sdnly i mish him??? :(
i used 2 cll him my besfwen...
bt sam chaotic mess stroke us both...
snce den,
we hvnt talk or beep ech othr 4 a LONG...tym...
days pass by n we stll h8 ech othr alot!!!

aftr 4 sam yers,
i wshd him his 19th bday...
he smiled n he sed dat he mish me...
i cnt say a thing n r8 nw,
he's oly a fwen 2 me...

aftr sam whle,
he apprd agn n dis tym,
a weird feelin apprd...
my damn head sed pls accpt him s UR besfwen agn...
lookin @ his ym,
tonz of peeps care bot us coz we used 2 b bestest buddy...
evn da whole KMM knew bot it...
bt my heart says NO...
he's oly a fwen 2 me...
wat shld i do???
accpt him or let fwenz b fwenz???

... >.< da lyf dat sdnly went wrong >.<...

F**K!!!!!!!!!!
dis tym is fcukin bad!!!!!
1 tym i recovr n evrtyn starts 2 fall into place...
bt den,
a storm sdnly Bashed evrtyn!!! T_T

|+|sam FUCKin BASTARD stole my fon agn!!!!|+|
|+|m start SUKin in VB|+|
|+|i dn go 4 MASUM 2009|+|
|+|my ovrll rslt 4 1st test SUX!!!|+|
|+|i'v got 19/34 for Linear Algebra(aka da mos eziest ppr 2 scre!!!!)|+|
|+|got 30/45 4 Calculus II|+|
|+|tonz of asgmnt n 2to dat i'v 2 sbmit dis Mon bt stll i hvnt done a thing!!!|+|
|+|got da worst rum8 eva coz he's STINKS lyk a PIG!!!!|+|
|+|ppl dun1a kam 2 my room coz evry1 cll it a PIG STY!!!|+|
|+|got da worst caterin grp coz non of dem cn COOK!!!(thre r 3 mlay GIRLS!!!)|+|
|+|cnt chnge 2 a new room!!!!|+|
|+|out of $$!!! T_T|+|
|+|cnt find a new vb(mine's expld oldi)|+|
|+|cnt undrstnd a sngle thin durin clss n rvsion!!!|+|
n da list goes on...

smbdy...
plz help me...
y all of dis hpnd 2 me???!!!
its mch ezier 2 gt trgh las sem rthr den dis...
tried evrtyn bt stll cnt gt trgh...
it bkam mch mre worse!!!!
argh!!!!!

DARN!!!!!

DARN!!!!
FCUK loadz!!!!
1na noe smtyn???
sam FCUKIN bastrds stole my fon!!!!
durin dat tym,
da door n wndows r lockd tght!!!! X( T_T )X
den,
my CALC test SUX!!!!
all da 4kas do lyk as if its a kinder ques... T_T
MALU GILER WEI!!!! T_T
gt an invtion 2 da MEGA dnnr...
dno wat it is bt hv 2 go lo liao :(
1na go wit me???? :(
jz fnsh LA n STATS asgmnt bt stll,
thre's tonz of work 2 b done...
argh!!!! X(
T,
msih u loadz...
wen do u 1na cll me??? :(
AMEER gna kam 2 UTM nex mon (16/2)...
cnt wait 2 c da nu him XD

btw,
P'E told me dat 4 peeps gt da UTM VB shirt oldi...
OMG...
hpe i gt it :D
plz3... ;(
God plz kill dat bloody BASTARD who stole my fon!!!! X(

myb dats all 4 nw...
p.s-thx 2 ZUL 4 his celc mdem ;)

yea2!!! T's BAK!!!! ^^

yeah!!!!
T's bak!!!
mish him loadz...
cnt wait 2 go party 2gtr!!! XD
bt been bz l8ly... :(
test + asgnmts = im DEAD!!!! T_T
bt dats ok...
i thnk i cn stll mnge...
had my DE(Diffrntial Equatn) test last wed...
thnk God i mnge 2 answr all da ques...
i cnt stdy in my room coz u noe y... X(
i cnt stdy @ my blok coz PRESSURE!!! X(
@ da end,
i brght all my notes 2 KTHO vollybll court n stdy der untl 7.25pm :(
lukly,
i rmbr all of it durin da test :)
hpfly i cn get 100% on dat ppr...
der's stll loadz 2 go...
da lists r: tests -CALCULUS II test (10/2)
-LINEAR ALGEBRA test (14/2)
-STATISTICS II test (15/2)

assgmnt - ENG
- STATS
- ETHNIC STDYS
- CATERING

2torial - DE
- LA
- CALC
- STATS
- ENG

ARGH!!!! wen wll i fnsh all of it????!!!! X( T_T )X

@last!!! i touch my books!!!!

darn!!!
its so damn hard 4 me 2 touch a sngle book!!!
i dno y...
myb smbdy curse me or smtyn...
my test is on da 4th of feb!!!
argh!!!
so mny 2 read,
so lil tym T_T
nyesalny xbce dlu!!!! T_T
hope ders enuf tym 4 me 2 stdy all of it...
7 sbjcts!!!!
damn!!!
2n8 i read 2 books oly...
CALCULUS 2 n DIFFERENTIAL EQUATION...
its so darn EZ bt stll,
i cnt mnge 2 mke it mine ;(
(u noe wat i mean...)
da 2torial...(i dno wat 2 say bot it...) X(
talkin bot asgmnt...
ARGH!!!!!!!
dno wat 2 say...
evrtyn stll hvnt fall into place...
SHIT!!!!
i rlly nd sam1 2 hlp me fnshup mu jgsaw pzzle...
T_T
plz sam1...
hlp me fnsh dis bloodin thin n i prmse i'll do anytn 2 rpay ur gud deed... :(
cnt wait 4 anthr break...
GOD...
plz let me scre dis tests...
4 all 7 bloody sbjcts...
plz...
i noe i cn do it bt i dn hv da will 2 T_T

facelift??? hurm...

lolx...
jz gt a facelft...
doin my cheeks n eye brows XD
damn!!!
it hurts dat bad!!!
dno hw dos models cn stnd it :-/


my fce ddnt stop bleeds 4 2dys T_T
i dno wt cme acrs my mind actly...
dno wt 2 do durin mid sem brk...
den,
i jz go lor do this thin...
@ 1st i dn1 2 bt my unc is wlling 2 pay 4 da bills...
so, y not XD
h8 it alot thgh...
dis is my 2nd n my las X(

mish u loadz T...T_T

ders dis 1 guy dat i clld him my besfwen...
he's hilarious, kewl, hnsme(coz tonz of galz lyk him :P) and he's lyk me(s if we're twins XD)
i cnt dscrbes him in words...
bt all i cn say is he's my BESTESTFWEN ^^
i stll rmmbr da 1st dy dat we 1st met...
its qte fny actly coz i met him trgh AQI...

@ 1st,
i rlly tght he's a true BEV...
bt den,
wen i stat knowin him,
he's a norm lyk me :)

alwys hngout 2gtr...
usually @ cafe C... lolx XD
der,
peeps thnks us phsyco coz of wat we do...
whch is,
spread da laughtr in mny dffrnt ways dat sam of da peeps couldnt accpr espcly da NTPs XD
bein norm 4 us is not lyk othrs...
we'r norm alr8 bt we'v our own way 2 mke it mre fun ;)

durin my bday,
i hid in his rum so dat i wont get prankd dat nite...
lolx :P
n da 1st bday presnt dat he gv me is a TISSUE (coz last min info)... :P
bt den,
i stll keep bcoz is nt da prsnt dat mkes a gud bday presnt,
but his fwenship n sncrty dat kept us jolly untl 2dy :)

@ 1 tym,
KMM mke a singin comp aka KMM STAR
n i dno dat T is in it...
evry1 sed he's da bes singer bt i ddnt get da chnce 2 c him in action ;(
he mnge 2 get into da final n den i gt da chnce 2 c him sing...
he sang LELAKI INI - ANUAR ZAIN...
n fyi,
he's GREATER den ANUAR ZAIN!!!!
he won 2nd plce bcoz all da chnse lads vote 4 da hwaren gal(she's not dat gud)...
snce dat,
peeps clld him 'TASNEEM LELAKI INI' XD
4gt 2 mntiond dat all of us nvr knew he cn sing(evn his prac dno eithr)... XD

day pas by,
n da las day @ KMM has fnly kam...
h8 2 leave KMM coz gt tonz of sweet n sour memoirs hre T_T
i wnt 2 c T 4 da las tym...
we spend hours 2gtr nyte sayin our gudbys n gvin our prmises... ;(
we'r qte shockd actly coz tears start fallin down on our faces... ;(
evry1's lookin @ us on dat nite bt its ok 4 us :)
n den,
we wnt 2 our sprte ways...

evrydy n evrynyte,
cntct ech othr trgh fon, txt, FS n a lil bit of ym...
wnt 2 KL 2 hngout bt sadly he cldnt mke it coz he has a fevr durin dat tym...
aftr dat,
i cnt cntct him no mre...
i clld, txt, ym, FS him evrdy bt he ddnt answr @ all...
da las tym i talk 2 him is on 23/9/08(my bday!!!!)
i wnt 2 c his pracmate dat is hre wit me in UTM...
i askd dem whtr T chngd his no or answrin any of der clls...
sadly,
all of dem sed NO...
myb T's mad @ me or smtyn...
i hvnt talkd 2 him 4 2months evntgh i clld n txt him evrdy week ;(

1 nyte,
on da 23/1,11.00pm,
i rcieve a clld...
@ 1st i dn1na ans den i look whos callin,
sdnly, his name appr n m lyk shoutin n jumpin evrywhre!!!! XD
mish him loadz... ;(
he sed dat he's fon gt sam probs etc...
bt dn cre bot all dat...
FINALLY...
HE CALLD :)
aftr a whle,
he sed dat he's goin 2 AUS 4 a vction...
darn!!!
i 1na go 2...
sadly,
m nt dat $$ lyk him :(
he prmse 2 buy me smtyn...
huhu...
cnt wait 4 dat :D
cnt wait 4 my sem break XD
hngout + mvies + shopin + HAVOC!!!! XD


mish u loadz budy...
thx 4 bein da greatest besfwen eva ;)

confusion...

havin a hard tym r8 nw...
hvnt on dis blog 4 1wk nw...
confusion surrounds me... T_T
dno who 2 trust r8 nw...
dno whch route 2 pick...
gv up or gv in??? T_T

stll dno whtr i cn cope up wit my stdys or nt...
trainin as usual...
stll thnkin whtr i shld quite trainin or sty... T_T
i rlly lyk vb...
bt i dno whtr dats da main rson i nt in da mood 2 stdy nymre :(
nd sam advce frm sam1 dat rlly2 facin da same thin s m b4...
gt 1 in mind bt myb he dn1na help mch...
myb he thnks m weird + lousy ;(

btw,
4gt 2 mntion dat IJAT has annced dat btwn us,
da word FRIEND has been DEL frm his mmory...
i dno y he did dat...
is bad 4 me 2 talk bad things bot him coz m stll cnsder him s my FWEN...
bt its ok den...
i acpt his dcsion...
coz i hv tonz of fwenz dat cares...
thx u guyz...
espcly BFF...
mish u guyz :-*

MiseRy BusSinesS... X(

DARN!!!!
i rlly h8 it!!!
i hvnt n cnt touchd 1 book coz i dn hv da mood!!!
my stdys SUX n i bkam STUPID by dat min!!!
m start SUKin in plyin VB!!!
argh!!!
i h8 it!!!
T_T

music dat alwyz help me get thrgh each SEM,plz kam bak 2 me..my HEART rlly nds u r8 nw T_T

argh!!!!
i stll cnt fnd da rythm 4 2nd sem!!!! T_T
plz help me sam1...
music of da mind, help me plz!!! T_T

i hvnt touch a sngle book 4 3wks nw...
i evn fell aslp durin a lectre T_T
eat + slp r my daily routnes 4 dis past few wks... T_T

sam1 plz guide me...
plz play da music dat i nd 2 hear r8 nw so dat i cn go bak 2 my norm lyf lyk durin 1st sem...
T_T

da feelin 2 b 1 of da UTM VB team :)

hurm...
m quite luky actly 2 b a part of da UTM VB team fams :)
da dnt treat me lyk n outsder...
evntgh im nt gt @ plyin VB,
da stll teach me wit all thr heart :)

2dy is my 1st tym wtchin UTM VB in action durin JB OPEN...
im thirlld + scred @ da sme tym...
huhu...
its a tough fight bt thy lose...
im bumb 4 dat coz its hard 4 me 2 c der sad faces T_T
abg KHOON sed its ok...
dey undrstnd...
n dey'll strve da bes 4 2dy's mtch...
sadly,
i cnt mke it T_T
jiayou UTM VB!!!
i noe u guyz cn win dis 1 ;)

thx alot UTM VB team ;)

heya...
i jz gt bak frm VB trainin lor @ UTM...
l8ly,m sux @ evrtyn... T_T
my lyf all mess up...
i evn wnt 2 a wrong CLSS!!!! X(
i dno y...
n m nw FATTER den EVA!!!! T_T
dno wt hd hpnd...
im SUX!!! T_T
BFF...
i nd u guyz T_T...

bt 2dy's trainin hd lift me up a bit...
im a darn NOOB in VB...
all of my sniors r PRO ^^
im nt jlez,
instead,
i 1na b lyk dem ;)
m stll learnin...
m afrd of makin othr peeps mad bcoz of my SUKINess T_T
sry u guyz coz i'v mde u darn mad... T_T
my shoulder hurts lyk hell..
i dno y T_T

m oso wry bot dis SEM... T_T
i thnk its 2 hard 4 me 2 mnge coz mos of da sbjcts r tough 4 me n fnsh @ 6pm T_T
trainin stats @ 8pm~11pm....
i dno wen cn i go stdy T_T...
hpe i cn maintn my GPA :|
plz...
sam1...
i rlly2 nd a shouldr 2 cry on... T_T