現実は裏切るもので判断さえ!!!

hurmm...
it's kinda simple actually...
i'm come to my senses already...
who's god and who am i...
HE control everything and i'm just a humble servant trying to get trough life...
without effort,
HE won't give us any rewards...
my result is a wreck...
don't care about it anymore because it's destined to be like that and i have to accept it...
like it or not,
it happened already and no one can change it...
i don't care anymore about graduating 1st class etc...
i just wanna get through this and hope for the best...
not planning to become a STATISTICIAN actually because i'm suck in STATISTICS...
i realize that my passion is on air,
in a commercial flight going around the world...
the route to get there is so damn hard nowadays...
so,
have to be prepared and pray loads to HIM because only HE can help me...

i'm so mad actually at this particular person whom i called DAD...
because of his fucking attitude and his noobishness,
i realized,that's why i don't celebrate FATHER's DAY...
serve him right...
sometimes,
i really wish i have a great dad whom i can look up to...
i've suffered so many years because of him...
only GOD,lecs n my friends know about it...
PLEASE GOD...
PLEASE MAKE HIM REALIZE THAT HE'S SUCH A FUCKING MORON!!!
i can't stand it anymore...
AMIN...

GOD had shown me the light that i've asked for...
but i'm to afraid to go back to HIM because he'll sure be furious...
i'll come back one day...
soon...
and hope everything will come out fine... ^^