CLICK HERE FOR BLOGGER TEMPLATES AND MYSPACE LAYOUTS »

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

i cant stop that feeling... T_T

coursemates kept text and called me just to know my gpa...

i have the guts now to tell them(eventhough i wrote in my blog already...haiz...)
the bad thing about it that i really hate is this ->

people: "AIEMAN,how's your result?"

me: "so bad. i didn't even get Dean List"

people: "you're lying.tell me la how much you got?"

me: "i only get 3.31 only..."(in a sad way) T_T

people: "har!!!! how come can be like that???!!! i got 3.96 and the others all 1st class!!!"

me: "i know..."

people: "u study like hell still get bad result??!!! blah2..etc..."

see...it's not worth telling at all...my dignity turn into dusts with a blink of an eye...i can't show my face anymore...can't stand the pressure!!!
GOD!!!
why do u did this to me???!!!
i didnt do anything wrong...
i dont deserve any of these things...
what do U expect me to do??
just accept it and smile all the way???!!!!
DAMN!!!!
eventhough it cant be rectified,
it's consider cruel U know!!!! T_T
U really let me down... T_T
i dont know what to say to U anymore...
T_T........

Monday, June 15, 2009

現実は裏切るもので判断さえ!!!

hurmm...
it's kinda simple actually...
i'm come to my senses already...
who's god and who am i...
HE control everything and i'm just a humble servant trying to get trough life...
without effort,
HE won't give us any rewards...
my result is a wreck...
don't care about it anymore because it's destined to be like that and i have to accept it...
like it or not,
it happened already and no one can change it...
i don't care anymore about graduating 1st class etc...
i just wanna get through this and hope for the best...
not planning to become a STATISTICIAN actually because i'm suck in STATISTICS...
i realize that my passion is on air,
in a commercial flight going around the world...
the route to get there is so damn hard nowadays...
so,
have to be prepared and pray loads to HIM because only HE can help me...

i'm so mad actually at this particular person whom i called DAD...
because of his fucking attitude and his noobishness,
i realized,that's why i don't celebrate FATHER's DAY...
serve him right...
sometimes,
i really wish i have a great dad whom i can look up to...
i've suffered so many years because of him...
only GOD,lecs n my friends know about it...
PLEASE GOD...
PLEASE MAKE HIM REALIZE THAT HE'S SUCH A FUCKING MORON!!!
i can't stand it anymore...
AMIN...

GOD had shown me the light that i've asked for...
but i'm to afraid to go back to HIM because he'll sure be furious...
i'll come back one day...
soon...
and hope everything will come out fine... ^^

Saturday, June 6, 2009

lost of FAITH and TRUST to GOD... T_T

results came out already...
fyi, mine's SUX!!!
my gpa is only 3.31...
thx loadz God for that...
i can't stop blamming Him...
i chew my ass off...
but then,
it's not worth a shit!!!! X(

i pray and pray but i can't feel his presence at all... T_T
what happened to me i don't know... T_T
i really miss Him and i want Him back in my life... T_T
God...
please show me the light so that i can go back to you...
i'm sorry for everything...
T_T

btw,
as promise,
i've breakup with my gf because i didn't get 1st class for this semester...
promise is a promise...
T_T

Saturday, May 23, 2009

now i noe ur TRUE COLOURS...

thx 4 bein honest wit me...
i think m a jackass evn try 2 noe u snce we met las yer...
tot u'r my besfwen, bt u'r NOT...
tot u'r my fwen, bt u'r NOT...
so,
it mkes me a JACKASS!!!...
y m so fuckin stupid 2 even try???!!!
wtf!!!
m a tot JACKASS!!!
i rlly h8 u b4...
bt aftr u told me evrtyn,
it isnt ur fault bt its mine...
FUCK!!!

move on man!!!!
thats wat wll i do...
m fnshd n i dn hv antyn 2 do wit him nymore...
m DONE!!!! ;)

u 1na noe who???
dn wory...
u'll noe soon ^^

Thursday, May 21, 2009

da TNET so...CIBAI!!!

hw kam sdnly bkam mre CIBAI-er den b4???!!!!
kns!!!
i 1na do my work n endup wit rubsh!!!
i evn cnt opn dis bldy mozzla!!!
dn u dre talk bot YM!!!!
FUCK tnet!!!!
so CIBAI!!!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

FUCK U DAD!!!!

DAMN!!!
I RLLY PISSD!!!!
HE'S N HIS FUCKIN ATTDE!!!!
G2H MAN!!!!!! x(

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

u'r actually da TRUE BESFWEN...

m wreckd trght tym n no1's der 4 me... T_T
cried n evrtyn bt stll,
no1's thre... T_T

den,
cme dis 1 guy into my lyf dat i ddnt expctd 2 b dis close...
he hlpd me...
he brgt me up...
he's durin my ups n downs...
he evn go 2 my mtches (he nvr miss 1)...
he accpts me s i m...
he's a guy dat evry1's lookin 4...



he's name is ASYRAF :)
n he's my TRUE BESFWEN ^^
he hlpd me in evrywy...
anytym, anywhre... :)
he was thre 4 me espcly las n8...
he stys 4 me n mke sre evrtyn is ok den he wnt bak...
it shows he cares 4 his besfwen... :)
n i rlly owe him 4 dat...
untl 2dy,
i stll rmmbr his words:
"u'r not my snior,bt u'r my besfwen"...
nt a sngle prsn dat i clld besfwen eva told me sch words...
bt dis guy,
he rlly mean it...

n 4 dat ASYRAF,
m rlly thnkfl dat i knw u ;)
u'r da TRUE BESFWEN ;)
i aprcte evrtyn dat u did n i dno hw 2 rpay ur gud deeds ;(
i rlly hpe dat we sty s BESTESTFWEN 4eva ^^
thx loadz budy... ^^